I held on to bitterness, anger, and resentment after leaving past companies feeling like I was wronged and the company owed me something more.
I stewed on that anger and let it consume me. It dominated my thoughts & time and put my emotional & mental states in turmoil.
I drank over this.
Having attained and maintained a level of physical and emotional sobriety, I now know that when moving on from a situation, don’t pack any of the negativity. Leave it behind, let go of it, and don’t bring it with you onto the next venture.
How did I know it was time to go? Simple: I noticed how my morning calm was disrupted by angry thoughts of the company and afternoon walks & evening dinners had only venting over coworkers for conversation. When talk of work is only of frustration and not of elation or enthusiasm, time to pack up. When things are on repeat and with a lack of progression, pack it up.
I left so I can leave that behind and I can have my time & serenity.
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When I travel to Japan, I take one huge suitcase packed with 2 smaller ones along with a couple of collapsed duffle bags. I pack lightly with clothes as I plan to refresh my Uniqlo and Muji daily wear while in Japan. I bring the minimum knowing I will return with luggage packed with sundries and foodstuffs and a spirit packed with memories and calm.